Through The Mist

I am home from my holiday - it went way too fast!  I had a wonderful summer, and was able to relax and enjoy myself.

I noticed a difference in how I was feeling even from last summer.  I know that last summer, I felt very frustrated and tired alot of the time, and I was almost at the point of being obsessed with keeping my camper perfectly clean and my kids clean etc.  I didn’t realize how bad I was until this summer, when I was feeling better, and was able to fell more relaxed about everything.

That is the thing with depression - sometimes you don’t even realize how bad you are feeling until you start feeling better and think back and remember the times before.  I was able to enjoy myself so much more this year, and I know that my kids did too.

Anyway, it is good to be back, but I am going to miss camping.  I hope that everyone else has been able to have a great summer and find enjoyment in whatever you have been doing!

I just wanted to post today to let everyone know that I am off camping for a month.  We just go to the campground in our community, so that everyone is still able to work and be close to home but still have a bit of a holiday.  So, I may not get much posted over the next month.  I hope to be home now and then, on rainy days and laundry days, so I might be able to get something written.

I hope that the rest of you take some time to enjoy family and summer relaxation!  I know that I am certainly looking forward to it!

My Uncle that I spoke of recently, who suffered from cirrhosis of the liver, passed away on Saturday.  It happened quickly, which I am grateful for.  He went into a coma the night before, and then passed the day after.

I am still in shock, and feel such sadness for what has happened.  I will never blame him though, as I understand that the addiction he had with alcohol had such a hold on him, and he just didn’t have the strength to fight it.  No one can understand how he felt, and no one can cast blame.

So, I am off to his funeral today, and I have to take my Grandma, which is so hard to see how she is having to go through this.  He would have been 60 in August.

If you are fighting any kind of addiction, please do not be afraid to ask for help.  Don’t end up like my uncle, who still had so much to live for.

Good Bye Darwin, we will all miss you.  Thank you for being the wonderful man you were, we will never forget you.